I thought my blog was going to end after I got back
from Cape Town, but low and behold, here I am, blogging from Iowa. I figure if
anything, I can keep my Cape Town family informed of what is going on in this
part of the world. I am not sure where to begin, though, because usually my
posts are about hiking expeditions, awesome hangouts with my St. Michael's
friends, or unique coffee shops; but alas, those mountains, friends, and
coffee shops are miles away. I am back at home one of my homes in
Des Moines, Iowa (lets be real, Cape Town is also home). I suppose I will let you
in on how I am doing being back home, and lucky for me I found a song that
describes it perfectly: "Thought Of You" by The Weepies. The
gist of the song is that the world keeps moving along, even though you may feel
really down and out.
I watch the stars from my window sill
The whole world is moving and I'm standing
still
The night is here and the day is gone
And the world spins madly on
Sometimes this song makes me really bummed because
I am reminded that all of my Cape Town friends are are still living their lives
and things are going as normal, even though I am not there. My heart leaps when
I see something on Facebook about a birthday party or a World Cup gathering
that I cannot be a part of. But how selfish does that sound (that was a
rhetorical question). I am SO gosh darn lucky to have had the chance to
meet the people that I did, and I am thankful that they let me into their
lives, even if it was for a short time. I learned the meaning of true
friendship from these people. Even though I will continue my life here in the
States, I know they will continue walking with me. Friendship doesn't end when
the friendship gets difficult. It just requires a little extra effort sometimes.
It requires not getting upset when you really want to talk to someone but you
realize they are already in bed because they are seven hours ahead of you. It
requires praying for each other. It requires sending an emoji of a bunny just
because you can. It requires knowing that even if you don't talk for a while,
you still love each other.
The song also makes me happy because it reminds me
that even though I have rough moments where all I want to do is hop on the next
plane to Cape Town (okay not literally...there are not direct flights there...I
am trying to make a point), life continues and change happens. I know something
new will spring up into my life to make the days bright again. Cape Town just
brought such a light though. Man, I
was so happy there. I expected to be on a low when coming back, but I didn’t
know it would hurt so badly. Sometimes I lay on the grass in my backyard and I close my eyes and I pretend like I am lying in the
yard at the K-House. But like I said, sunnier days are soon to come, I just
know it.
I feel like I am back to my first month in Cape Town, when I was so
unsure about things and I did not have anybody to talk to about what I was
feeling. I talk to God all of the time because He already knows everything I am
feeling, so I don’t have to worry about fully explaining myself. From
reading the Bible I have come to learn that God does not mind if I yell at him
or get angry, which sounds weird, but it is true! God wants us to be honest and
let out all of our feelings…and He is not going to judge us at all. He just loves. He
is seriously the bees knees I cannot believe that I (and anyone else willing
to open their heart to Him) get to be best friends with Him. God knows that I
am feeling like a part of my heart is missing (I left it in Cape Town, meh)
but I know He has something in store to fill it with. I am excited to see what this is... I will keep you posted…
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